Happy Birthday Addison
This is the first photo mummy ever took of you.
You were 2 hours old.
You were lying on my flabby, empty bump (and the rest) on the hospital bed. I was so proud, I wanted to show you off immediately, so as soon as we were alone, I took this photo and sent it out to 18 people.
It was only the next morning in the cold light of day, that daddy pointed out you could see my nipple in the bottom left hand corner. 18 of my closest friends and colleagues and over 350 people on facebook saw my nipple the night you were born. Nobody ever mentioned it. This is the lovely world mammy brought you in to. (The photo has been photo shopped since.)
Yes Mammy, has made some absolute corker fark up’s since you were born, and they started that night. (Ok, they started waaay before that and you and I both know it. But still! I don’t blame you.)
Addison. Mammy wants to thank you for the best year of her life.
It has been long, as I havent slept.
It has been hungry, as I had 4 stone to lose.
It has been hard, due to post natal depression.
It has been filled with smiles, watching you learn new things.
I have been tired, as I haven’t slept. (Did I mention that already?)
But mostly it has been the most loving, overwhelming and beautiful experience of my entire life.
I have thought of myself as a bad mummy, a fat mummy, a good mummy, a useless mummy, a disgusting mummy, a great mummy, a lazy mummy and a lucky mummy.
The only one I agree with everyday, is the last.
I am the luckiest Mammy alive. Because I have you.
I have tried my best, to do the best for you. That is all I can do. (And then a little bit more.)
If you are smiling, then that is all that matters to me.
This time last year I had never met you.
Now I couldnt live without you.
Thank you for turning my world upside down, baby boy.
Thank you for being my best friend.
I hope you enjoy your party… but please don’t put the plastic balls in your mouth! And no! Put that down… Addison don’t throw cake at Isla…. no come on, don’t put your finger in the plug socket…
Here is to the next year!